What a difference

Well folks, here is my attempt at getting control of my life, I have started going to the gym in the morning and 6 am and I go for a hour and by the time that I get home the baby is just waking up and I am all ready to start my day. No change on the body yet but my mood has changed. And my newest accomplishment? I got a new computer! I had no idea how much my old computer sucked until I got the new one. The restaurant has been incredibly slow. But with the Midwest hitting the 20 below mark I don't blame people for not wanting to go out to dinner. The weather has been a struggle with a 1 year old. Right now it's 10 am and still -9 out. Logan's cheeks are so dry they are cracking. But it's supposed to start warming up this weekend. Well that's all that is going on at the moment! Hope all is well with everyone.

Evil Twin

I work with this cook, we will call him Dominick. He is 36, been a cook since he was 17, really good looking, and very charismatic. Sound familiar? He and Todd are two months apart. Here is the difference. Dominick has his drivers licsence, owns his own home, has a beautiful car, likes to drink at home, likes video games and football, so do I but Todd doesn't. It's creeping me out how similar they are but how different. It's like they are twins but one is good and the other is evil. Todd and I are basically done but not official yet. He refuses to stop drinking in public when I told him that my dad is high up in charge of the sheriff's department, people will see him and he is actually going to be eligible to get him licence back in May and he told me flat out that he is worried about it because he's not sure that he is going to be able to hack it. He has a attitude that he's above the law and is sometimes vocal about it and I really need to do what's best for Logan, He can't have a role model like that. I know what I need to do but it is so hard to do the right thing.

Vacation here I come

I need a vacation and I am going to take it! I had one really bad day. I went to work and was told to start a fire. Well little did I know that they had closed the damper the night before and since it was always open I didn't bother to check it and smoked out the restaurant. Between that and just all the other stress that went on the hectic weeks lately I just started crying. The restaurant has been really slow. It's that time of year and there is a new restaurant in town so it's been unbelievably slow. Well since we were over staffed I asked if I could go home. I didn't want to hear the staff joke with the customers of my mistake. I understand that they were making sure that the customers weren't upset with the huge cloud of smoke but it still didn't feel great. Well on the way home I called Todd's sister and asked if she would mind if I came to visit her in LA for a week with Logan and she was happy to hear it! I got home and then the shelf in the fridge fell out and the boysenberry syrup fell and broke all over the carpet. So I looked up flights on the Internet and will be taking my trip feb 5-feb 10. It will be great to get away from the apartment and my job for a while. This morning isn't going any better. I got a call from family that was going to watch Logan that they are sick and can't watch him. Well the other half of family is going to a dinner party and all of the teenagers I had in mind are out of town or busy. So all day I have been trying to get a hold of my work and tell them that I can't make it in due t the circumstances but it's not even that big of a deal I was supposed to be 1 of 2 bartenders. We have been so slow, they really don't need me. But I can't get a hold of them to tell them. I can't wait to get out of here! Here's to a better days to come.

Mercy

Mercy! I give up! The Drama will not leave me alone. Things are okay with Todd and I but everything else is falling apart. My brother who was scheduled to come home from Iraq in March, but as for Bush's new plan he is extended for at least 6 more months. My family is pretty upset, he's in some pretty dangerous areas and some of the members of his team died. The caretaker job is stressful as hell. The woman that was the caretaker before myself had one apartment turnover and in the three months that we have been in charge we are up to 6 with two more coming in a month. We have had to paint 5 apartments beside have our normal jobs and take care of our ever busy 11 month old baby. And the drama hasn't stopped there. Tonight I have a 16 month old sleeping on my couch. She is from across the hallway and her mother was in the hallway saying that she had to go to another town and I told her that if she was coming right back that she might as well leave her here because she was coming right back. Well I went to work and her step dad is there and she is supposed to come to work at 6 and at 7:30 we are all starting to get worried! She broke up with her boyfriend last week because he got violent with her and she needed to do what was best for her and her baby and she was going up to pick him up in another town. Didn't occur to me that it probably not the smartest thing to do at the time. But she called from a casino crying with him yelling in the background and that is all we know! I have the baby until the grandmother gets off work at midnight. I am so glad that I got the baby from her! I can't imagine! But other than that I am helpless. I don't feel that it is my part to call the cops, her family is aware of the situation and unless there is something going on at the apartment they can call the police if they feel it's necessary. But until we find out all I can do is take care of this little girl. I need a vacation so bad!

Merry Christmas

Christmas this year was rather enjoyable! Todd didn't get carried away with the drinking (surprisingly) and actually got along with my family considering that they all have their guards up with him being that just this thanksgiving I tried to leave him! We had a good time Christmas eve, played cards and games, had dinner, opened presents it was a really awesome! Logan made out like a bandit! My entire living room floor is covered in new toys but he doesn't seem that interested unless I am sitting on the floor playing with them too. He still thinks that opening the top of the printer/scanner is fun, must discover what is behind the TV, and to see if he can shake the lamp until the shade can come off. I'm excited though! I have a co-worker that I moved in across the hall from me and she has a little girl that is 5 months older than Logan and she will be coming over to play today! sometimes I think that Logan just needs someone to play with and that's why he gets so bored easily! Well I guess today we will see! Other than that nothing much new! My brother called from Iraq and was really homesick! We toasted him at dinner. I really miss him lately! We haven't been close since started school in kindergarten, he made new friends and didn't want anything to do with me! But it was all good! We fought alot! Absolute opposites in every way possible! But now that he went over there he has learn the importance of family and we have gotten much closer! And he says that he misses Logan the most! He's missing a year of his life and can't stand it! But it will be okay! Well to everyone, hope you had a great Christmas and that all is well with you! Take care!

Baby's first Christmas

Here we are in Minnesota, the week of Christmas and when my little town in the middle of nowhere looks outside the window we see nothing but dead grass! Now my feelings on this is mixed! Since we are now the caretakers of an apartment building we are required to shovel the walks (Had to do that once this year) record snow plows coming through and have all the tenants move their vehicles when the plow arrives (0). On the other hand this is the first year that I can remember that the song I'm dreaming of a white Christmas has had some truth! I live in Minnesota! The first snow fall is pretty special but after that I'm over it! We usually spend a good 7-8 months with the stuff and you just kinda get over it! But I'm so tired of looking at dead grass! My birthday was pretty good! Todd's dad came back from California and found out it was my birthday and went to his car and took out a portable DVD player that he had bought Logan for Christmas and decided that it was mine! I looked it up and I can't believe how much money that he was spending on my child! He's 10 months! He doesn't need a DVD player! Can we say spoiled child? Other than that it's still been pretty quiet around here! Not that I am complaining of course! To everyone, have a merry Christmas and hope all is well with you!

Birthday Week

Logan's pic
As of this week I am starting my birthday week. Last year I was pregnant so I didn't get to do anything fun! Plus Todd and I were in the biggest fight! nothing really going on around here! We made a home video to send to my brother over in iraq. We are getting closer to having everything back in order at the apartments, and lately no fighting with Todd! So the soap opera is having a slow week! :) Any way hope all is well with everyone! Later.